So how did I develop kidney disease?
Now that is the million dollar question. I used to be very active and walked 3 times a week and over weekends walked to the cross on the mountain. The cross used to be diagonally above the tower here on the Outeniqua mountains.
I remember the doctor at the time said there is blood in my urine, but it is okay as I am so active, but slowly over a period of time the walking slowed down until I just stopped walking.
This was when I was diagnosed with heart failure with less than 6 months to live, but this is another story.
I had to go to the local hospital for heart function tests and on discharge was phoned by the specialist who asked me these weird questions about my kidneys. He asked me over and over the same questions. I ended up in Groote Schuur Hospital where I stayed for 2 months and I had an Aortic Valve replacement. The renal department supported me through the operation and the recovery afterwards.
It was not very long after this open heart surgery that I was told I have 5 years with my kidneys as they were deteriorating fast. Thanks to the care of the doctors at the local hospital I was approved for peritoneal dialysis and had to have the Tenckhoff catheter fitted.
A PD catheter (sometimes called a Tenckhoff catheter) is a special tube that is inserted into your abdominal cavity (space around the organs within your tummy). ... You will need to have an operation to insert your PD catheter.
What is kidney failure?
Kidney failure, also known as end-stage kidney disease, is a medical condition in which the kidneys no longer function. ... Causes of acute kidney failure include low blood pressure, blockage of the urinary tract, certain medications, muscle breakdown, and hemolytic uremic syndrome.
According to the kidney specialist I have Berger’s disease.
IgA nephropathy, also known as Berger's disease, is a kidney disease that occurs when IgA deposits build up in the kidneys, causing inflammation that damages kidney tissues. IgA is an antibody—a protein made by the immune system to protect the body from foreign substances such as bacteria or viruses.
I am fortunate to be able to do peritoneal dialysis and I attach myself to a bag every four hours, every day. I start at 6 am and finish at 10pm. So at 6am, 10am, 2pm and 6pm I stop what I do – scrub and sterilise my hands, sterilise the workspace and perform this function. At 10pm I drain out the 6pm liquid and sleep dry. The next day at 6am I start again. This is done every day!! I have been on peritoneal dialysis since May 2015.
Peritoneal dialysis (per-ih-toe-NEE-ul die-AL-uh-sis) is a way to remove waste products from your blood when your kidneys can no longer do the job adequately. A cleansing fluid flows through a tube (catheter) into part of your abdomen and filters waste products from your blood.
The first stage of healing: - I truly believe to heal you need to forgive. You need to forgive everyone who has ever hurt or harmed you. You need to ask for forgiveness for everything you have ever done to hurt or harm another. You need to forgive yourself for everything you have ever done to harm or hurt another.
This is the 3 stages of forgiveness. BUT this is where it can get difficult for some!
Surely it is not right forgiving someone when they hurt you really badly. Maybe those people you hurt unintentionally really deserved it. Can you forgive everybody except that one person like your mother in law for example?
Does it mean you condone what they have done when you forgive them?
This list can go on and on and will be part of another story but for now I want to introduce the first stage of healing. For healing and forgiveness too take place you need to get all these issues out of your system.
No, I do not talk to dead people and I’d prefer dead people not to talk to me, but when you open the door the messages from the departed just flows in, which can be a bit disconcerting.
Messages from departed loved ones are normally very short and to the point and can be very healing like what happened the other day in Pick and Pay a local grocery store. I was waiting in the queue and saw an employee crying but very discreetly. I went up to here and just gave her a hug and she said her daughter passed two months ago and before I could say anything else the words “Please tell my mum I want to speak to her” came forth. This is how I find my messages come through. I suggested she makes herself a cup of tea and get talking to her daughter.
Not long after I moved into my flat I was told by a close friend that there is an elderly gentleman who is not very happy I am staying here. He suggested that I leave or try my best to rid my flat of this presence.
I lit some candles, incense and burned Mpepo, opened my front door and instructed this person to leave immediately. I performed this ritual more than once.
A few months later the couple, who also rents a flat on the same property, told me about this old man who is living in their bedroom and sleeps on their bed. I said nothing as I did not want this old man returning to my flat oh no!
The owners of the property came back from overseas, and started doing some mayor building work, walls were knocked down and we talk large scale alterations here. With all this going on the talk between the owners and the elderly couple was all about the old man who seems to be everywhere.
Being a Medium certainly has its ups and downs and you need to be mentally strong to stop the continuous non-stop interference by the spirit world.
I wear an invisible hat for protection, and I know that I am safe as I ground and protect myself. The hat stays on always.
Sometimes messages do come through regardless of the fact that I wear this hat that is so profound that I cannot ignore it. This is why I took notice of what was happening when I felt the presence of a young man. I could see him and hear him.
This young man was in an accident. He was knocked of his bicycle by a taxi. He passed at the scene of the accident. He identified himself and asked me to please give a message to his wife. He was newly married. He said please tell her that I love her. I told him that she knows that; you will have to give me a message that only she will understand. That is when he said “Please tell her not to forget about the ring”.
This accident happened in 2013 and I have been keeping this message safe as I had no way of passing this message on. Somewhere someone out there knows this family. Please pass this forward. Many thanks
The cyclist – Burry Stander.
Earlier this week the boss, and may God bless his soul, was walking around here saying how the customers only want to speak to him as he is so efficient and superior. I knew he was just having a go at me, and I don’t have to tell you anything about the male ego. So you can imagine what went on here.
Not 30 minutes later “the boss” was sitting at the computer and I asked him to create an invoice in Quickbooks.
He opened the invoice, entered the customer’s name, entered the line of sales, realised he made a mistake with the entry, deleted the entry, which is now zero, paid this amount, so invoice with no sales listed is now paid, printed it and then he deleted the invoice.
Even Quickbooks would be impressed with what he had done here and I have a copy of the invoice as proof.
Now that is what you call karma in action!!
And me – I just smiled.
As we all know procrastination is such a useful excuse. Just one more program to watch, just one more article to read no wait, let’s read a book…that’s better.
I have perfected the term procrastination. Defer, postpone, stall, adjourn and putting off all until tomorrow or even the next day or even the day after.
Never do today what you can put off until tomorrow.
Procrastination is what helped me when I was diagnosed with Kidney failure (that is another story) and instead of speaking to my family in my highly emotional state, I deferred by playing a game on my phone non-stop for about two weeks, regardless of the fact that at the time I knew a very toxic “friend”, and that is another story, who insisted I talk to my family. She would phone me late at night, first thing in the morning, 10 o clock, 2 o clock….you get the idea, continuous non-stop badgering, which I duly ignored as I was way too busy doing other things.
When I calmed down I sat my family down and spoke to them. I was calm, factual and yes it was difficult but I did it.
So being a procrastinator has been hugely beneficial as it has taught me to just be.
Which is why I am now going to follow the Egyptian god of writing, manifestation, astronomy and esoteric arts, Thoth who says don't worry about punctuation, grammar or spelling just express your thoughts and feelings as they flow into your mind and body.
As a clairvoyant and psychic medium I do occasionally go for a reading and the "they" are some of the wonderful people I have met during the years who have given me wonderful insight into my life. The latest was just two months ago. The writing issue was the main topic on the table. So who am I to ignore the call?
The next instalment will be about the Queen of Procrastination.....and we all know who that is.